But y'all that made those comments likely had "friends" there. Every room I walked into; it was awkward. Some almost had a vibe like I walked in on lovers. OK, maybe that's a slight exaggeration. But it just felt strange, like I didn't belong. Like this was a wedding and I crashed it. No one was flat out rude, but I sure didn't feel the love.
I would like to make just one last comment, and this may unfortunately seem like an attack - please believe me when I say I do not mean it that way...
But it just felt strange, like I didn't belong.
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It" did not feel strange;
"you" felt strange. Others walked into the same rooms you did, and believe me, very few of us 'knew' each other or very many of each other there. Some rooms I saw a few familiar faces - most of them, I saw none that I knew on sight, and probably it took a few minutes of jogging my damaged brain cells to remember them once they told me their screen names.
I walked into the same rooms you did. Did I feel like I was interrupting anything? No, not that I recall. Did I 'feel the love'? Not especially - but I also didn't feel like maybe I should go away. Was the gear too expensive for my budget? Yep, nearly all of it.
If it did not bother most of us, but it did bother you...does this tell you anything? Remember, it was the first fest for many, and lots were newbies just like you.
I do know something of what you seem to have felt, though. I recently went to a "Kiss Expo" here in Detroit. I drove quite a long way out to Romulus, MI, and paid $20 to attend the 'expo'. Upon entering the room, I discovered that the 'expo' was in fact ONE CONFERENCE ROOM which held about 20 8x10 tables. There was a stage where a tribute band would be playing later, four Kiss mannequins, and dealers at every table selling eBay close-out Kiss memorabilia that had remained unsold since the 1980's. About 20 dealers, about 15 fans, all of whom quite clearly knew each other. I took about five photos and left. What a waste of time and money - for me. The guys who were clearly into were - well - clearly into it. Get it?
I figured it was not that the people there were not into me - I just wasn't into them. Lesson learned, I kept steppin'. What I
did not do was tell them - even politely - how lame their expo was and how I would not be back. Why? They like what they're doing. I didn't 'get it' but there you go - life's like that.
I guess the point here, if there is one, is that not everything is for everybody. People in this thread have been super nice to you for the most part, trying to jolly you into seeing that we're all a bunch of nice people and you'd like us if you gave us a fair shake. Well, we are a bunch of nice people. But maybe we ain't your kind of nice people. So shake the dust off your sandals and move on, brother. No harm, no foul, and I mean that in the nicest possible way.