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This is the worst week of my life. I thought just writing something down here might help me work through it a bit.
My highschool sweetheart and I have been together almost 22 years, since we were 18. As I was just about to put on the first record of the day at 3:30 Sunday afternoon, she said we need to talk, and told me she wants to split.
She says there's not anyone else, she just feels she wants more out of life than she feels I can offer her. I'm a fairly simple guy, I work, I fix stuff around the house, I tweak my system and that keeps me happy. Our favourite together time is taking the dog for a hike in the woods.
For the past few years she has been hanging out with new people she has met through her job. "Normal" for these people is several nice vacations a year, expensive restaurants a couple times a week, fancy homes, owning their own big/successful business etc. This had been worrying me for awhile, maybe it's just one factor, I dunno.
I have said I'd like to try counselling (my employer will even pay for it), but she doesn't seem to want to fix it.
I have never been in a position to truly understand how devastating this can be for people, lord do I get it now... I love my little house, I love my pets, and I still love my wife very much
Going through something like this without her to support me, or make me feel better is the worst despair I have ever felt. When I lost my father at 25, I had her, our place and my comfort zone to cling to until I got over it. With this I just have a few friends and family to talk to, but nothing from the most important person in my life, it's awful.
I've gone through 48 hours of not sleeping, sobbing and not being able to eat. The past two days I've felt stronger, and that maybe this is for the best, I'm still not sure.
The worst part is that I've felt something was wrong for over a year now, but I could never get her to talk to me about it. I think Facebook replaced me as her best friend long ago, and I just never knew it.
The annoying part is that I just got my system sounding it's best, now I'm worried I will end up in some crummy apartment, where I will never be able to enjoy a bit of volume.
Also, I've never dated as an adult. I have no idea how to even begin to think about that (although that's a consideration for loooong down the road).
Anyway, I thought venting might help. I know others have been through this and come out stronger, I have to think there is hope one way or the other that the future isn't going to be as cruel as the present.
thanks for reading
My highschool sweetheart and I have been together almost 22 years, since we were 18. As I was just about to put on the first record of the day at 3:30 Sunday afternoon, she said we need to talk, and told me she wants to split.
She says there's not anyone else, she just feels she wants more out of life than she feels I can offer her. I'm a fairly simple guy, I work, I fix stuff around the house, I tweak my system and that keeps me happy. Our favourite together time is taking the dog for a hike in the woods.
For the past few years she has been hanging out with new people she has met through her job. "Normal" for these people is several nice vacations a year, expensive restaurants a couple times a week, fancy homes, owning their own big/successful business etc. This had been worrying me for awhile, maybe it's just one factor, I dunno.
I have said I'd like to try counselling (my employer will even pay for it), but she doesn't seem to want to fix it.
I have never been in a position to truly understand how devastating this can be for people, lord do I get it now... I love my little house, I love my pets, and I still love my wife very much
Going through something like this without her to support me, or make me feel better is the worst despair I have ever felt. When I lost my father at 25, I had her, our place and my comfort zone to cling to until I got over it. With this I just have a few friends and family to talk to, but nothing from the most important person in my life, it's awful.
I've gone through 48 hours of not sleeping, sobbing and not being able to eat. The past two days I've felt stronger, and that maybe this is for the best, I'm still not sure.
The worst part is that I've felt something was wrong for over a year now, but I could never get her to talk to me about it. I think Facebook replaced me as her best friend long ago, and I just never knew it.
The annoying part is that I just got my system sounding it's best, now I'm worried I will end up in some crummy apartment, where I will never be able to enjoy a bit of volume.
Also, I've never dated as an adult. I have no idea how to even begin to think about that (although that's a consideration for loooong down the road).
Anyway, I thought venting might help. I know others have been through this and come out stronger, I have to think there is hope one way or the other that the future isn't going to be as cruel as the present.
thanks for reading