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I've had a nice day today, got some necessary work here achieved without forcing myself, got in three full meals by lunch, took a couple of cat naps and got on a more level playing field financially.
13% discount on all payments, never any interest, flexible payment scheduling.
13% discount on all payments, never any interest, flexible payment scheduling.
I will elaborate further in the future since this is so enormously miraculous.
To say I could not have experienced a better day would be an untruth.
This was the best day I could have experienced, although the battle (throat cancer) is still ongoing, this can only be a full-blown out-of-the-blue Miracle.
I'm preparing for my fourth full meal of the day, and allow this meal and what transpired a chance to fill my body and soul the nutritional and spiritual gifts to nourish my body and soul.
I stand in awe of the crushing weight that has been lifted from several shoulders.
Mysterious ways. Yes. Miracles. Yes. Decades of prayers, finally answered. I am more happy for them than for myself. Granted I am a beneficiary, mine pales in comparison.
I am screwing my feeding receptacle into my feeding tube to pour this unflavored "pancake batter" into, while flushing with water, and let this wash over and through me.
What a great day to be alive.
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God is good, all the time, praise Him! Prayers will continue...
Not been around much this week. I am past chemo myself and feeling pretty good.
Enough about me. I have tears of joy this morning.
You hang in there. F^&k cancer. You got this friend.
We will both toast something on the other side of this.
Frannie
The morning sunrise was beautiful, cold crisp clear skies blending from the darkness into the brilliant blue sky without a cloud in sight.
I've tried to damndest to boil 26 years of a one-sided hatred and constant battle to destroy me and my property over a "property line dispute, that clearly wasn't. I had done everything right, they bought years after me and decided they needed a large slice of my land which I was never going to cede.
The ridiculousness even made Front Page headlines, and I could never catch a break. At one point, the wife stood in my yard blocking me on my riding mower, spitting at me, arms crossed, and telling me to get off her land.
I shut the mower down, told her if she didn't know where her property line was, she had the obligation to have it surveyed. Same as I did the very day I bought my land in December 1994.
Her response was prove to me this is your land, and at that point I just backed up the mower to finish my job. This is when her husband stepped out of the area where their vehicles were parked, pistol in hand, while she called the sheriff.
They had claimed I had tried to run over her on my riding mower.
My corner neighbors were outside, but didn't have a good view of the incident, but realized something was up since I was riding directly towards them while a crazed husband stood at the street threatening me.
Charges were filed, I was released OR bond, and court date set.
Finally, my day in court. Both of them were there, I showed up with my attorney, and my corner neighbors.
Charges dropped, nothing written up in the papers.
Through the years I have had shots fired from their property, while I was outside working, and LEO would never do anything. My word against theirs.
I realized what the game was, they were looking for a reason to "legally" kill me, a single white man with no family in the area, in a rural setting where they could pilfer all my accumulations, and attempt to obtain my land.
I had no camera systems, good ones were out of my price range, and the rudimentary system I had was worthless.
Through the years I weathered the storm, I don't know how but here we are. In the last year or two I finally started assembling the necessary lighting (commercial parking lot grade LED of if memory serves me right 92,000 lumens. I also got a multi TB hard drive PTZ 6 camera system so there isn't a damn thing missed.
The day I started to implement my system, I had a friend stand out in my ditch, on a mainly dark night, camera running and a bright flashlight at the ready to turn on as soon as their darkened doorway opened, and a rifle barrel emerged pointed at me walking up my driveway.
He caught the action clearly, and flashed on the light as the barrel quickly retreated and door silently closed.
I had another opportunity to capture the same scenario, different person. Just like before.
My place looks like Walmart parking lot at night, and I have captured them walking up to my property line while firing shots.
Clearly visible fire from the end of the barrel, within 5 foot of my property line that spans 115'.
While I was outside.
I could do so much with the damning evidence.
Does it accomplish anything?
Probably not. All I have ever wanted is to live a good and peaceful life. I will file the videos and witness statements plus their video captures with the court, t formally clear my name in all this harassment, and show the county/State the truth I never had anyone ever believe.
Perhaps a civil lawsuit, but then again, after all this what will I gain?
Fire away guys, I stood my ground through everything, and finally may have that chance to begin that good, righteous, and peaceful life I already deserved.
As an addendum, I bought this place to turn over a new life. Life part one ended as I went past rock bottom.
I had landed at base camp, rock bottom was the summit of Mt Everest.
Anyway, I am still blown away, I am in a good place, while I enjoy today's blessings while praying for tomorrow's sunrise.
I've tried to damndest to boil 26 years of a one-sided hatred and constant battle to destroy me and my property over a "property line dispute, that clearly wasn't. I had done everything right, they bought years after me and decided they needed a large slice of my land which I was never going to cede.
The ridiculousness even made Front Page headlines, and I could never catch a break. At one point, the wife stood in my yard blocking me on my riding mower, spitting at me, arms crossed, and telling me to get off her land.
I shut the mower down, told her if she didn't know where her property line was, she had the obligation to have it surveyed. Same as I did the very day I bought my land in December 1994.
Her response was prove to me this is your land, and at that point I just backed up the mower to finish my job. This is when her husband stepped out of the area where their vehicles were parked, pistol in hand, while she called the sheriff.
They had claimed I had tried to run over her on my riding mower.
My corner neighbors were outside, but didn't have a good view of the incident, but realized something was up since I was riding directly towards them while a crazed husband stood at the street threatening me.
Charges were filed, I was released OR bond, and court date set.
Finally, my day in court. Both of them were there, I showed up with my attorney, and my corner neighbors.
Charges dropped, nothing written up in the papers.
Through the years I have had shots fired from their property, while I was outside working, and LEO would never do anything. My word against theirs.
I realized what the game was, they were looking for a reason to "legally" kill me, a single white man with no family in the area, in a rural setting where they could pilfer all my accumulations, and attempt to obtain my land.
I had no camera systems, good ones were out of my price range, and the rudimentary system I had was worthless.
Through the years I weathered the storm, I don't know how but here we are. In the last year or two I finally started assembling the necessary lighting (commercial parking lot grade LED of if memory serves me right 92,000 lumens. I also got a multi TB hard drive PTZ 6 camera system so there isn't a damn thing missed.
The day I started to implement my system, I had a friend stand out in my ditch, on a mainly dark night, camera running and a bright flashlight at the ready to turn on as soon as their darkened doorway opened, and a rifle barrel emerged pointed at me walking up my driveway.
He caught the action clearly, and flashed on the light as the barrel quickly retreated and door silently closed.
I had another opportunity to capture the same scenario, different person. Just like before.
My place looks like Walmart parking lot at night, and I have captured them walking up to my property line while firing shots.
Clearly visible fire from the end of the barrel, within 5 foot of my property line that spans 115'.
While I was outside.
I could do so much with the damning evidence.
Does it accomplish anything?
Probably not. All I have ever wanted is to live a good and peaceful life. I will file the videos and witness statements plus their video captures with the court, t formally clear my name in all this harassment, and show the county/State the truth I never had anyone ever believe.
Perhaps a civil lawsuit, but then again, after all this what will I gain?
Fire away guys, I stood my ground through everything, and finally may have that chance to begin that good, righteous, and peaceful life I already deserved.
As an addendum, I bought this place to turn over a new life. Life part one ended as I went past rock bottom.
I had landed at base camp, rock bottom was the summit of Mt Everest.
Anyway, I am still blown away, I am in a good place, while I enjoy today's blessings while praying for tomorrow's sunrise.
I've got your neighbors kin living next to me. I understand the frustration.
I would love to see and hear you get satisfaction from this conflict. Sounds like you have the evidence. If you have the will in you, for dual fights, I say go for it. Clearing one's name from slanderous lies is important. This is something a friend can help with.
I would love to see and hear you get satisfaction from this conflict. Sounds like you have the evidence. If you have the will in you, for dual fights, I say go for it. Clearing one's name from slanderous lies is important. This is something a friend can help with.
For her to never spoken much to me, stop her car with me shirtless, feeding tube in all it's glory, the tracheostomy sticking out of my neck, and me barely to speak where anyone can understand me, the words spoken in front of her young grandson resonated the desire to end this. "If there is anything we can do" amongst the dialog, I believe is credible.
She knows the gig is up.
Hate destroys the vessel wherein it's contained and I believe the mortality she faces with her husband's own failing health, and seeing mine, has reset her heart.
That alone, is a good start.
I have a lot of teeth and jawbone/gums reconstruction surgery then a three week healing period before my radiation treatments.
This is my battle to focus on right now.
She knows the gig is up.
Hate destroys the vessel wherein it's contained and I believe the mortality she faces with her husband's own failing health, and seeing mine, has reset her heart.
That alone, is a good start.
I have a lot of teeth and jawbone/gums reconstruction surgery then a three week healing period before my radiation treatments.
This is my battle to focus on right now.
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To quote Lou Holtz:
You will never get ahead by trying to get even.
Neighbors and family, people we don't even know, bosses wives husbands kids...there is not one person in this world who will not cross us, enrage us, break our hearts destroy our trust, cheat or steal from us or fall far short of meeting our expectations.
We are no different and the same criteria befalls us.
Nobody is perfect, including us.
There is no advantage to lessen ourselves, it's your ass in your skivvies, and if there is a turd in it don't start trying to figure out who sh!t on you.
I can't fight everyone everywhere everyday every time something goes afoul. The only battle is keeping my integrity, knowing right from wrong, and doing the best for myself.
All those moments I burned with the desire to get even, get over and give them their comeuppance occupied a lot of my time. Not much fruit hanging from those branches. In the end when I pass on from this world, I will go alone and will answer only for myself.
Is the great Scorecard going to show me in a bad light or good? I cannot give you that answer.
Would my life be wildly different had I given anger, rage, revenge a full field in which to play? Damn straight it would. At the end of the day, end of life, it still your ass in your skivvies.
Do what you feel like doing, but ask yourself: is it right, does it make my life better? There are two others one will learn through time to use as a life's yardstick so I will allow those others to learn them and their importance.
Please be good to yourself. Of everyone out there, you deserve it even when you feel unworthy.
I absolutely love y'all for letting me ramble on and not complaining about my brain farts stinkin up the thread somewhat.
Without everyone who is there, or will be crossing down this path in the future, every day could be your last, everyone of those days you have the choice how you want to treat yourself.
Be kind, be honest, be confident, be positive, but above all let your Light so Shine before all men, they have no doubt who is your Guiding Light.
And love yourself.
You have really been an inspiration to me, Rob. I decided to do a drawing about your battle with the big C . If anybody is going to make it through this gauntlet, it will be you. As always, thoughts and prayers are with you. I titled the drawing "Holey Spirit". I thought about your radical surgery that laid open your throat and the spirit you've shown fighting the disease.
Rob,
Your post today is truth! Preach on, brother. I hope all is well with you. I have been wondering, do you have the time and ability to listen to any tunes? I hope so. Music can sooth and heal both spirit and body.
Keep moving forward. We continue praying for you.
Bob
Your post today is truth! Preach on, brother. I hope all is well with you. I have been wondering, do you have the time and ability to listen to any tunes? I hope so. Music can sooth and heal both spirit and body.
Keep moving forward. We continue praying for you.
Bob
That is so beautiful, I wished that it can pe pinned permanently to my profile in all it's richness and creativity. You have a great gift sir.
Please note, I've drawn so much inspiration of the depths of personal (physical) loss, drawn so much warmth from the huge outpouring of helpfulness this community graciously bestows on a daily basis from strangers all across this planet.
It is unmatched, will not be duplicated, and has given me more inspiration than I've been able to share.
This is a community, all kinds of folks, and if you look close, you will find plenty of love to comfort a beleaguered soul.
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At this point, I have Roku with Amazon Prime music. Crappy TV sound but once I have crossed over the difficult part, it will have to do. I can barely walk to my mailbox, or carry a gallon of milk, but I can do my best.
Maybe when the weather warms, someone can drop in to spend some time helping me reduce my clutter that will do others good as they cannot do anything for me now. My room is filling with medical devices I need, so space is a premium.
One day at a time, I would enjoy good company as I will have a three month rcovery once my teeth are removed, jawbone/Gums are reconstructed, beginning this week, half day full sedation surgery. Once healing is completed it will be chemo/radiation treatments.
Done my friend.The drawing is yours, Rob. If you PM me your address, I will mail it out to you.